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Waking Up From the Futile Search

Enclosed in All of Me

Nov 16, 2009

Saying For Today: After all, ... if I am afraid of the self-giving that Love will ask of me, I might choose to stay in my dream of seeking Love, while all the time It holds me and only wants to express Itself to me.


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Title: Waking Up From the Futile Search: Enclosed in All of Me

Today's Saying: After all, ... if I am afraid of the self-giving that Love will ask of me, I might choose to stay in my dream of seeking Love, while all the time It holds me and only wants to express Itself to me.

Sagely Words

You remain
in pervasive, internal discord
through the power of spiritual laziness;
so, ignite the fire of effort
of practice.

*Atisha (Buddhist Master, b. 982). Kadampa.org . Translated.

Christ prayed that He might be in us and we in Him. This we find in the Gospel,... And this is the union without means; for the Love of God is not only outpouring, but it also draws us inwards, into the Unity. And those who feel and are aware of this, become inward and enlightened persons, and their highest powers are uplifted, above all exercises, into their naked being: and there, above reason, the powers become simplified in their essence, and so they are full and overflowing. For in that simplicity, the spirit finds itself united with God without means; and this union, with the exercise which belongs to it, shall endure eternally, as I have told you heretofore.

*John of Ruysbroeck (Flemish, Christian Mystic, b. 1293). The Adornment of the Spiritual Marriage. Trans. C. A. Wynschenk. Adapted.

Spiritual Teaching

If I speak to a man or woman who is having a dream of dying of thirst, and I say, "I have a glass of clear, cool water here in my hand. You can have a drink." Will the person believe me? No, not as long as the person is in the dream of dying of thirst. But, possibly, my words might help awaken from the dream.

Helping to wake up persons and groups up is all spiritual Teachers do. Otherwise, I need to turn in my ordination. I am not here just to give answers: what are answers to one who remains asleep. Our poetry, our prose, our actions, our presence … are to awaken others and ourselves - and awakening is not a once in a lifetime matter, but process. The moment I quit waking up, I go back to sleep down.

Again, even the Teacher must keep waking up. What wakes me up? Partly, Life is my Guru, my Teacher. If I pay attention to Life, then, it will keep waking me up. Every relationship I am in, of each type, wakes me up. Life is always calling me to alertness, to attentive listening, to change. Life is Friend, Graciousness.

I sought you
until
I saw
that I had always
been held in
Your
arms.

*Brian Kenneth Wilcox, "Until I Saw"

Now, see, those words can awaken us. From what? Our self-created drama that we are alone, lost, and uncared for – separate from God. Even our religion or spirituality can put us to sleep, or keep us from waking up.

* * *

“Religion resists progress,” writes Bishop Carlton Pearson. “It is a form of witchcraft with which man has become familiar. We know the rites, rituals, doctrines, and disciplines, and we have become dependent on them. They have become a manipulative, fear-based force that holds millions of people hostage.” Ironically, Pearson is a clergyperson in the Christian faith, and, so, his assessment is the more powerful – even if his point is over-stated.

*The Gospel of Inclusion: Reaching beyond Religious Fundamentalism to the True Love of God and Self.

We get in a prison, self-made, other-made, and we can forget how we got there. We may even come to believe there is no way out, and we resign ourselves to a prison life. Religion or any form of spirituality can become another box to hide in, to allow others to tell us what we must do, and not do, what we must believe, or not believe. We can huddle together in that sweaty, hot place, and think we are obeying God. Well, we all just end up asleep – a collective delusional state. The path, and our giving over our conscience, mind, and heart to others who enjoy the power of being “representatives” of God, well, is a narcotic to make us defenseless slaves to systems.

What is the dream – the delusion? The ultimate delusion is the belief that we find God by seeking God, when we cannot find God by seeking God. Seeking is to exhaust our dream, the dream that God must be found. So, seeking is essential, but only until we wake up to Whom holds us, already. We cannot discover God in seeking God; rather, God is before, in, and beyond the seeking. God is the seeking and the sought, and God is the oneness of both. Love makes possible your very aspiration for Love, so, how can you not know the presence of Love?

* * *

Often people will use an odd logic of seeking to avoid Love by seeking Love. Odd, is it not? After all, to return to the poem, if I am afraid of the self-giving that Love will ask of me, I might choose to stay in my dream of seeking Love, while all the time It holds me and only wants to express Itself to me.

So, insight leads us to see that to drop our seeking means to realize the dream is a subtle avoidance. Do you want this Love, or God, then, realize you are already in Its arms. You walk among It. You breathe It. It breathes you. How can you miss it, unless you are asleep in a dream of seeking it? Ultimately, there is no separation between the Divine and any creature; Nature is soaked in Divinity, in Grace. The whole world is a sacrament for us, when we are awake and open to It.

Look through the words, through your life, and listen to the Truth, then, you will see. Once we see, then, the search has ended, we can relax, and we can trust the direct experience that is incommunicable but from spirit to spirit. Otherwise, our seeking, our complaining, our fussing are simply mechanisms of our small selves to keep us in the futile dreaming. Until we wake up, we will only push away what we most long for – odd. As long as we give our power of union with God to an institution, to a Teacher, a Guru, a religion, …, we will miss the intimacy we long for with the Absolute.

Which do you want? Do you want to keep seeking? Or, are you ready to wake up from the futile search? If you want to wake up, you must be honest and earnest. That is the Work of waking up. And you do not have to do spiritual practice many years, or many lifetimes to wake up. Wake Up!

Oh, Ocean of Grace!
I long to know you, wholly,
to be wrapped in
Your arms,
to be surrounded by
all of You,
body to body,
one.
"Let go, my Love,
sink into Me,
give Me your breath,
give Me your all,
and I will enclose you,
I will still your longing
with all
of
Me."

*Brian Kenneth Wilcox. "Sink into Me"

Responding

1)Take time daily, nightly. Stop, breathe, look – truly look – all this consciously, fully in the moment. If you are on a path of religion or spirituality, see each thing you see and think as a lineament connecting you to God. At times, let it all go – as though you have no religious or spiritual identity – and rest in the Presence of Grace.

2)Do you have unexamined beliefs, which you need to pray about, seeking to know if you hold these for you have been told they are true or you truly sense they are true?

3)How might a religious or spiritual path help us to be awake to God? How can these become a hindrance?

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*OneLife Ministries is a ministry of Brian Kenneth Wilcox, SW Florida. Brian lives a vowed life and with his two dogs, Bandit Ty and St. Francis, with friends and under a vow of simplicity. Brian is an ecumenical-interspiritual leader, who chooses not to identify with any group, and renounces all titles of sacredness that some would apply to him, but seeks to be open to how Christ manifests in the diversity of Christian denominations and varied religious-spiritual traditions. He affirms that all spiritual paths lead ultimately back to Jesus Christ. He is Senior Chaplain for the Charlotte County Sheriff's Office, Punta Gorda, FL.

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